It Is Time

The past month or so there has been a stirring in my spirit, a restlessness, an anxiousness. I have seen it as boredom with the routine of daily living: waking up, walking my dog, going to work, sitting at a desk for 8 hours, going to karate, coming home and sleeping. I want to do something significant. I want to feel like I am making an impact on the Kingdom of God. While I truly believe my job to be important to the financial security of our ministry which heavily impacts the Kingdom of God, it is very easy to disconnect what I do with the masses who are accepting Christ as our missionaries go into all the world and I stay home. I've had a stirring in my spirit to do SOMETHING. I know God has called me to a purpose. I know He has taught me so much about my identity and authority in Him in the last year. I know He has put the passion and desire in my heart to share my testimony with many and to express to them the passion that Christ has for them. My favorite time of the week is on Sunday morning when the Lord gives me a Word for our congregation and I get to speak it for all of 5 or 10 minutes. I love to speak into their lives and to let His Word settle in their spirits. I love to see their lives transformed by Him and by more and more of an understanding of who they are in Him. However, that's only 5 or 10 minutes a week or every other week. I know I am meant to do more than I am doing.

Last monday I was so fed up with the routine that I took the day off work, slept a little extra, prayed, and then sat myself in a coffee shop for several hours to finish my book (almost done). It was refreshing. It was a huge step in the right direction for where God is calling me. I don't know where He's going to take me (but Tracy, if you ever need an extra speaker for a women's conference or anything.... :) ) and sometimes I wonder if my testimony is really relevant to the people of the Church today. I think it is in more ways than i realize. I think once I develop my message of not only my testimony, but of learning our true identity in Christ, it will be powerful for the body of Christ. I can feel it burning in my spirit, this desire, this passion to see women and men alike come to know with all certainty that they belong to a mighty God, that they are His beloved, that they are His beautiful bride, that He passionately pursues them and loves them with an everlasting love. I want Christians everywhere to know they serve and awesome God and that they can walk without shame because He takes away all condemnation. We can walk with our heads held high and our eyes looking into the face of the most adoring love in Jesus. We are His beloved. He fawns over us. He adores us. He wants so much more for us and usually we end up settling for less than His best because we're afraid to step out in faith. He is our everything and we are the apple of His eye. He lavishes His passionate love upon us. If we could only grasp hold of this truth deep within the core of our being. If we can put aside those feelings that tell us otherwise, those old tapes that play in our head from past people who told us we were less than, and CHOOSE to listen to the voice of Truth of God's Word about who we are, oh what a force the Christian community would be. The only thing that holds us back is ourselves, our lack of determination, our desire for things of this world, our lack of understanding that this life is not about us and what we want if it doesn't line up to His will. He is our Lord and we are not the author of our lives.

Today I checked my email and received this from a war drummer friend who is on a prayer team for me. Her writing is a little difficult to follow, but you'll get the picture. It is time for us to hold on to Jesus and let Him take us where He desires. It is time for us to become a part of the army instead of waiting for the enemy to trample us. It is time:

"this is war drummer cooing to you all, i felt this word from the lord, jesus christ and the son and the holy spirit, there is war coming to each of you even now, way crys women in travail and giving birth for the baby to come forth, we need to stay so close to jesus no more running here and there, in the visoion i an getting the lord is showing me so many of you are in fear and scared, and not sure what the next step will be. many want out of this life. the darkenss is stronger than ever before us. we need to stay so close as a family stay close to one another. cry out cry out,,,, cry out for your loved one the time is at hand no man know were he well sell and buy, the lord show me, the time is at hand....

we need to watch out for what is at hand, the time the clock is ticking ticking ticking,,,, the voices of the dark are getting louder and louder, sccreaming voice i see in you minds and mindset, with in you, father father father we cry out jesus jesus jesus we take cover under your wings, cover us father would you not spare one, or two, father we cry out we repent, we turn from our wicked ways, forgive us jesu father and the son and the holy spirt.....

father we cry out we surrened all to you, have you way it us,,,, judement has cover the earth, and within the house of the lord,,,, time is runnig so fast right before you and i arise arise arise jesus would say to you and i time is at hand,,, it is time to rise up and take you stand in the amry of the lord......

he will give you his battle plan,,,, stay alert and stay awake, fear not for i go with you say jesus, I am that i am who am i am your life who will you choose this day,,,,,,jesus our the world, this day who you will serve say the king jesus i am that i am....."